The sound of despair and desperation.

There is a study that has shown the effects of thoughts on water on YouTube and it shows that positive thoughts have a higher frequency than negative thoughts. With this change of frequency you can disrupt the molecules of water.

Now thinking that our bodies are 75% water imagine the effects of thoughts on us.

I think everyone has experienced the example of sods law where it’s not until you find love that people seem interested in you sexually. This could be because the frequency of love is attracted to us just as the frequency on desperation and loneliness is unattractive.

You have to be happy in yourself for anyone to love you.

Peace love and light

Sleep when im dead?

It’s odd but sleep escapes me even more now than ever before. I say odd because it seems to me after 3 days I should be begging the land of nod to sign my passport and set up my flying 4  poster bed.

No matter how much i lie there with my eyes burning in the darkness, I cant seem to nod off or even sleep a wink.

Still I have managed to absorb some rest in the form of slumberful daydreams and I hope tonight is going to be peaceful but I can see my appetite keeping me awake, calling me.

My domain is lonely and drab and I hate it so, I need a source of heat and warmth.

To be loved is to be

To be wanted has struck me hard, constant wishes of the main proposal of which is our nature. The provocative shine much more brightly on this side of the fence.

The struggle of want and need are no longer an issue and I raise myself higher each day. I see love in a different shade now in fact I barely recognize it. It hasn’t been tarnished but invigorated and made exciting.

Who will be the next project, my next “first step for mankind”. What is achievable I am achieving slowly through the medium of love and spirit. No more tears for me.

I must remeber the leasons i have learned and how i shine so. I must be true when thinking about you and realize my true Tantric potential and study hard for my test. I want to master the system of love lust and company.

I am a soldier of the rainbow child and I sing with vigor and strength and never back down.

I’m much more calm now and i wont rant on but im proud to be one of me.

Peace, love and light

Happiness goes where energy flows

Dispute and hate have flown through our lips these past few days. Saddened though i am i dont know whats the best thing to do. Do I miss you or just miss what we had? Do i want to kiss you again or do i want to keep the memory of kissing you alive.

Confusion rushes over me in waves I hate it, I have no idea how I feel about anything. I need to meditate.

Any help out there

Inspiring art

These are some picture from Facebook, I don’t know the authors but it’s not me and I took you from the bottom of my heart for your art.

Complex and fragile anxieties

When I sit and ponder why it is I have such ill luck in regards to love and war, I firstly must ask myself what is the purpose of a relationship. And now that I do I see just how hard an answer that is. So how do I expect to have a good relationship if I don’t firstly understand a relationship. The concept of a two-way relationship.

So as I sat and thought and asked myself over and over, the silence gave me a solution. Perhaps the answer is self content. The ability to be yourself and be totally comfortable with one person. The ability to grow and do exactly what feels right to you at that time and only that time.

I think now, as I ponder on that, if I am the person creating resistance then I must ask why, why am I creating friction. What is there that is not quite sitting right with me. I take a deeper ponder and deep dip in my subconscious and as i do so i imagine the global consciousness fueling my quest.

My feelings confuse me, this is the issue I can’t read the person I am to read, this haunts me. I don’t see through metal or wood. I don’t see my answers in your words. I want to decipher what you think of me and think about my psyche. How fast your heart beats around me, the movement of your eyes following me.

And now because of this new found informational injection I can be content, I know what I want to be happy, and if I can have that with him he will have to accept what I need. As long as what I need is fair which id agree with the concept of relationships it is fair.

Remember in the silence is where the answers are found.

Peace, love and light

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Running away with myself

It’s inevitable if you’re anxious and in a relationship certain things will worry you and those things will then spend all your energy supplies trying to make you mad.

The smallest of worries can manifest into heinous barrages of dread and despair. The more you care about the person or the “root” of the issue the more you sit with your head in your hands, rocking rhythmically to your own heart beat. This simply adds fuel to the already burning fear inside you.

During this time I find it peaceful to speak to friends and have the people around me set my head straight as I struggle to do so myself.

It’s also very healing to write down your thoughts and even to express deep emotion, if only alone.

I’d love to know your thoughts so get in touch!

Peace, love and light

MEMO FOR YOU CHILDREN OF LIGHT AND LOVE

As you can see I like to write alot and often and have decided that I will now be putting my posts up to send at 6 pm UK time. Just so you don’t miss anything 🙂